I learned a new word the other day that I really like:
How can you educe the best in the people around you?
I learned a new word the other day that I really like:
How can you educe the best in the people around you?
Thanks to my spiritual director, Sandy Boller, who shared this evocative poem by Ted Loder with me this week:
Oh God, gather me now to be with you as you are with me.
Soothe my tiredness;
quiet my fretfulness;
curb my aimlessness;
relieve my compulsiveness;
let me be easy for a moment.
O Lord, release me
from the fears and guilts which grip me so tightly;
from the expectations and opinions which I so tightly grip,
that I may be open
to receiving what you give,
to risking something genuinely new,
to learning something refreshingly different.
for claiming so much for myself
that I leave no room for gratitude;
for confusing exercises in self-importance
with acceptance of self-worth;
for complaining so much of my burdens
that I become a burden;
for competing against others so insidiously
that I stifle celebrating them
and receiving your blessing through their gifts.
O God, gather me to be with you as you are with me. Amen.
Ted Loder, Guerrillas of Grace
There is a Chinese maxim: “Eat Bitter” or “Eating Bitterness”, known as Chi Ku. It is a Chinese phrase for enduring hardship. It means to endure something unpleasant or to continue in spite of pain, creating strength of character. Back in my teaching days I had a principal, Mr. Fong, who kept a bowl of candy on his desk. Whenever a student (or teacher!) was in his office for disciplinary reasons, he would offer the bowl. He’d explain that it was a Chinese custom to offer something sweet to soften the blow of something bitter or hard. Enduring pain and grief can be a chi ku experience. You don’t want to live on a diet of bitterness, but remember that good comes with the bad, blessing in the midst of trial, joy comes after the dark night of the soul.
You may have heard I’ve been on Sabbatical since February 1, 2016. I decided I needed time to adjust to the diagnosis of CRPS in my foot and consider how to continue my work. I am committed to writing during this time, blogging and beginning a draft on a new book.
I get a lot of questions about how I’m doing, what CRPS is, and why I don’t seem to be getting any better. CRPS is not common, so I’ve created a Q&A here for you.
Let me know if you have other questions!
Q: What is CRPS or RSD?
Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (formerly known as Regional Sympathetic Dystrophy or RSD) is a chronic nerve disorder characterized by inflammation and severe pain. The level of pain in CRPS is measured as one of the most severe conditions on the McGill University Pain Scale, worse for some than childbirth, cancer, and even amputation.
In addition to severe pain, sufferers may experience muscle spasms or tremors, increased sensitivity to even light touch, muscle atrophy, increased sweating, color and/or temperature changes in the skin, altered hair and nail growth. Patients may also experience many internal manifestations such as hoarseness, sensitivity to light and sound, digestive issues, bladder problems, irregular heart rhythms, gynecologic issues, memory loss and compromised immune system functioning.
Once CRPS has progressed in one area, it can move to other parts of the body.
Q: What causes CRPS?
CRPS occurs when the nervous system and the immune system malfunction as they respond to tissue damage from trauma, such as a bad sprain, broken bone, surgery, or less frequently, something as minor as being stuck by a needle. The nerves misfire, sending constant pain signals to the brain.
Q. Who is most susceptible to getting RSD/CRPS?
A. Women get the disorder about four times more often than men. There is no age limitation – patients range from the very young to the elderly.
Some theories suggest a genetic predisposition for the disorder. It is not uncommon to see families with more than one member who suffers from CRPS.
Q: How common is CRPS?
CRPS is considered a rare disorder by the U.S. FDA with 2-5% of people (1 – 5 million) in the United States being diagnosed. However most experts believe the condition is under-diagnosed and attributed to other diseases.
Q. When I read about CRPS, it almost sounds like fibromyalgia. How do they compare?
A. Many experts believe fibromyalgia is really a form of CRPS. Fibromyalgia and CRPS have many similarities: Both involve serious pain and mostly afflict women. However, CRPS is far more involved with more intense pain levels and internal organ manifestations.
Q. If so many people have CRPS, why haven’t I heard more about it?
A. CRPS has no national spokesperson and research funding is limited. Furthermore, because the disease is poorly understood, the chronic pain from RSD/CRPS may be mistaken for pain from other physical or psychological conditions. This leads to a decrease in accurate diagnoses.
Q. How is RSD/CRPS diagnosed?
A. As with most medical conditions, your doctor will take a comprehensive history and perform a physical exam. Conventional testing such as x-ray, CAT scan and MRI will serve only to eliminate other possible disorders but will not confirm the diagnosis of CRPS. Nuclear bone scans, once though to be a diagnostic aid have not proven useful.
Thermography or Infrared imaging shows the sympathetic dysfunction and identify the disorder. This test is contact-free and painless making it ideal for a pain-afflicted individual.
Clinicians use the mnemonic “COLDER” to aid the diagnosis of painful diseases. They will ask the patient to describe the Character, Onset, Location, and Duration of the painful symptoms, as well as what might Exacerbate or Relieve their pain.
With CRPS the description might look like this:
Character: Sharp, burning, spasming
Exacerbation: Touch, activity
Relief: Elevation, narcotics
Q. Is the condition curable?
A. No. Many diseases are not “curable” but are treatable and controllable. This is the goal of treatment in CRPS – to control the dysfunction and facilitate as normal a lifestyle as possible.
Q. What about treatment?
A. There are a number of treatment options with varying degrees of success for CRPS patients. Physical therapy can be helpful in the early stages. However, the patient should be cautioned to be extremely careful in their choice of therapy because excessive or incorrect therapy can be quite harmful.
Many also use medications to treat the symptoms. Medications include anti-seizure drugs, muscle relaxants, anti-inflammatory agents and pain medicines.
Interventional treatments include nerve block injections, ketamine infusions and spinal cord stimulator implants. Some doctors might recommend a sympathectomy, or cutting of the nerve in the affected limb, but research has shown this treatment is not effective and can cause the disease to move to another part of the body.
Some recommend dietary changes with the goal of reducing pain and other symptoms. Adjusting the diet to exclude gluten and other highly inflammatory foods has been successful for some.
Alternative treatments including prayer, meditation, and Reiki have not been researched but can offer comfort and stress relief to patients.
Additionally, a positive attitude and support from family and friends leads to better outcomes.
My task in this time of Sabbatical is to find the path as a tracker follows a trail that seems to have grown cold. I will watch for the signs that He has been here, I will listen for the sound of His voice in the wind, I will take notice of His touch in the pain and joys and people that touch my life. I know He is there. I am a miner trapped in a deep cave looking up for glimpses of the light, knowing a rope will be there that will lead me home. There are gems in this cavern. My task is to gather them without letting go of the rope, without losing sight of the light above. LVA
“Christ is our employer… only the chances are that this side of Paradise we will never see His face except mirrored darkly in dreams and shadows, if we’re lucky, and in each other’s faces. He is our general, but the chances are that this side of Paradise we will never hear His voice except in the depth of our own inner silence and in each other’s voices. He is our shepherd, but the chances are we will never feel His touch except as we are touched by the joys and pain and holiness of our own life and each other’s lives. He is our pilot, our guide… But often when we need Him most, He seems farther away because He will always have gone on ahead, leaving only the faint print of His feet on the path to follow… And Christ is there with us on our way as surely as the way itself is there that has brought us to this place. We are here. He is with us – that is our faith – but only in unseen ways, as subtle and persuasive as air.” Frederick Buechner
Creative rejuvenation. Spiritual revival. Professional development.
You hear about pastors, professors and corporate execs taking time off for study, rejuvenation, travel… But business owners??
This business owner is going to do it!
I need time to heal and get my strength back: mentally, emotionally, spiritually.
You may or may not know that I was recently diagnosed with CRPS in my foot. CRPS is a nerve disease that is very painful and has kept me from wearing a shoe for over a year. I’m getting around fairly well on a knee walker, but my mobility is limited. I’m scheduled for surgery at the end of February to implant a Spinal Cord Stimulator to help manage pain. We’re hoping this device gets me back in a shoe, on my feet, and ready to get my energy and strength back after months of inactivity. I appreciate your thoughts and prayers during my recovery.
So if I am this close to getting back up and running (at least walking!), why would I choose to pause now for a Sabbatical?
A Sabbatical is a time for refreshment, study, reflection and rejuvenation. I feel my heart, soul and business all need a time to dive deep, to rediscover the roots of my passion and purpose, and then clarify the calling and focus of my life’s work. I promise you I won’t be simply watching Netflix and coloring mandalas — however I do anticipate doing some of that too! I plan to use this time to read, talk with people who inspire me, write, and listen.
So no new clients, speaking gigs or marketing for the next 9 months. I’ll fulfill the contracts and promises I’ve made over the next few weeks… and then I’m done!
Lots of fear is popping up in between moments of thrill at the thought of time to rest and write and read and think and possibly travel — but I am confident I will emerge with more focus and clarity, passion and purpose.
You’ll still see me here and on social media. I’ll keep you posted on projects and progress. But I will also probably take a bit of time offline too.
And at the end of these 9 months we’ll just see what is born from this time of refreshment.
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